Constant worrying
Hi all,
This is my first post even though I have been following this forum for the last year and half !
My journey started in 2011 but even now it still feels like yesterday . I have finished all my treatment , have gone back to work and am trying to get on with my life but I am so paranoid and so worried about recurrence .
I have been suffering with back and leg pain since before Christmas . I had a bone scan in Nov which was clear but it's constantly on my mind that the cancer is back now in my bones or something .
I tested positive for the brca1 gene a few months ago so I think that has me feeling like a ticking time bomb now to be honest. 
Think I'm just having a bad day today . Glass of wine should cheer me up
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Hi Chardonnay,
Sorry you had to join us, but welcome all the same
I feel the same way as you do. I am just hoping that as time goes by we'll all feel the threat receding and learn to live with it. All we can do is to have any worries checked out which is what you did.
Hugs
Kath
[quote="shirls":1tm2slo1]Hi Chardoney,
Sorry you too had to join us on this site
I think everything you're feeling is completely normal. I certainly think daily about reoccurence. My oncologist told me that I will probably think about it every day for the rest of my life (great !)
I think the key is not to let these thoughts take over our life I know that's hard when you are having a bad day. The one thing I have learnt from this cancer journey is that none of us know what lies ahead and I just try to live each day and not stress too much about the future.
Shirls[/quote:1tm2slo1]
Hi Shirls , thanks for replying . Ah I know to be honest I do try to be positive most days every now and then I just go into panic mode . Only to be expected x
Thanks Kath , yep onwards and upwards as they say . I don't know why I didn't join this before its great to speak to people in the same situation .
Absolutely!
By the way, to whoever got us started with the onwards and upwards idea (Wicklow Lady maybe), thank you. And thank you also to all of you fabulous ladies who regularly remind us of our onwards and upwards theme. Definitely a good thought to hang on to.
Welcome chardoney...... nice you joined us we are not a bad bunch here
Sorry to hear about all the worrying - however remeber 95% of the things we worry about never happen - so save your time for thinking about something really nice for yourself..... I know its easier said than done
Hi Chardoney,
Sorry you too had to join us on this site
I think everything you're feeling is completely normal. I certainly think daily about reoccurence. My oncologist told me that I will probably think about it every day for the rest of my life (great !)
I think the key is not to let these thoughts take over our life I know that's hard when you are having a bad day. The one thing I have learnt from this cancer journey is that none of us know what lies ahead and I just try to live each day and not stress too much about the future.
Shirls