posted by Neadi
07 October 2012
Day 11
Last reply:
02 November 2012 18:44
Hi guys!
It's day 11 and I have my bone scan tomorrow. Things are still fairly crappy. I just want to sit inside and eat chocolate. Sometimes I do, sometimes I put on the runners and go for a walk. One of the girls from school gave me "the choice" and I found that really good - resolving to give up the chocolate again tomorrow!!!
Are there any good books I can get to get my head around this. I nearly flipped last night at my husband when he said to me "in a few weeks your life is going to be awful anyway". I'm going mad waiting for test results, and boom! The dim realization of the whole physical side just hit me. What the hell is going to happen...... I really want to blitz this thing that has invaded my personal space, but it sometimes in my lower moments just seems so terrifying and scary and overwhelming......all the women here are so so strong- I feel like such a moan bag. All I want to do is get better and be able to smile again...
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