Stage 4 Gals
Hi to all stage 4 gals.
Avril here. My trials[breast cancer spread to bone] are well documented on other posts!
My motive is selfish as was just wondering how you all were and seeking support.
Probably you are all very busy getting ready for Christmas.
Is anyone else finding the whole Christmas thing tough?
Am going through the motions.
I have an only child aged 9 and sometimes I just feel like bursting into tears when I think about things. I have a great husband but who thinks that everything will be just fine.
Have two more sessions of Taxol left, last one on Christmas Eve .Chemo went ok, just tired but not sick.
And then scan in the New Year.
Was 'researching ' on the internet and got really upset.
Prognosis just seemed so poor and these were supposedly reputable sites.
Gals, just cannot get into the 'Live for Today' mode aka you could be knocked down by a bus at ANY time!
Though to stay sane it is what you have to do.
Thinking of you all.
Avril.
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Ellie,
I hope you have a wonderful Christmas with your daughter.
Like you found shopping tiring. Don't know what I have in the wardrobe and don't care!
Went for the Christmas Eve chemo as it is the last session.
No one knows how many Christmases we have left-Maybe we have oodles!
My oncologist told me he has yet to meet a man who can tell the future.
Avril xx
Hi ladies, it's bad when you're 'trumping' others with mets sites!!! Sacro iliac joint, liver and lungs!!!
I recently filled out a questionnaire in hospital because so many women are living much longer with secondary breast cancer.
I'm feeling down at moment probably for the same reasons that most survivors are.... Too much nostalgia, happy new year etc when we have no idea what's around the corner. ...and scans in January.
I find CBT great...... It's like switching off your feelings by doing something else, like a crossword , sudoku or a stupid tv programme, just to get my brain turned off.
We are probably all going to go through bad news at different stages, but NOT THIS DAY, let's try to keep that in our befuddled minds.
TODAY I'm going to enjoy!
Love to all
Hi Lemrac,
It is indeed bad to seek out specifically others with secondaries but hey we need to stick together!
All other ladies were probably out going mad shopping!
I made the possibly mad decision to have chemo on Christmas Eve and was zonked afterwards. Turkey got very little attention!
It was great to hear from you and hope you had a nice Christmas.
Was beginning to wonder if there was anyone else out there!
Avril
Hi Girls
Just reading your post and just wanted to say hi and big hugs to you all.
I am sure Christmas was so hard to get through for you with that uncertainty (spelling) looming all the time.
I like what your Oncologist said Avril.
Dee
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Hi Avril
Like you I'm stage 4. I have secondary breast cancer, its in my liver and my bones. I'm on a chemo break till after Christmas. I didn't want to have chemo Christmas eve and not be able for Christmas! I have a daughter so I want to enjoy Christmas with her. I've a scan in the new year too. I asked for a few weeks break and the doctor asked why and I said I don't know how many Christmases I have left, I want to enjoy this one as much as I can when I'm able to! He said you are dead right!
I had my last chemo a week ago. I'm exhausted this week and I still have shopping to do. I did some this morning but I got too tired and had to come home! I know how you feel though, its difficult to keep positive all the time. At the moment I'm looking forward to Christmas. I try not to think about how sick I am. I'm not too bad, just really tired. Hopefully by next week I will have a bit more energy.
I hope your last two sessions of taxol go well. Have a good Christmas
Ellie