The Terror of waiting

Hi all , I hope its OK to post here. My Hubby is 59 and last Thursday he had a scope procedure, they discovered a lump in his oesophagus. A biopsy was taken and a CT TAP scan was completed on Friday. So its Monday we are both in work in respective jobs . He was OK over the weekend -saying we dont know what it is ect. I am absolutely terrified - I have not told him this- I cant i need to be strong for him and our 2 sons (both grown up) So I'm posting here just so i can get it out. I have worked with Medical devices for years including esophageal stents so i probably have seen too much. so we wait. But I dont know how to wait without cracking up :( .